Blessings To: and Fro

Well, I had prayed for time to do more for His kingdom. I had prayed that I could begin a company that would expand minds and His kingdom. And the bad guys knew it. I bragged about being able to rely on my husband's steady work (only 4 jobs in 35 years) and then the horned minions took that job from us. I was bragging that my business plan in my business was ahead of schedule and response in the community was good. Then my landlord's plans did not match mine and I am looking for a new location. A hiccup in my plans for sure, but it means 6 weeks or more without income from the same sources I have relied upon.
Ooops! A HA!! That is why. I relied on those earthly things that feel real but are vapor in a God's eye who blinks and a thousand years pass. BLINK. So, just as Shadrack, Meshack and Abednego praise Him in the midst of fire and just as Daniel praises among lions and just as Joseph prays from prison-- I have praised and prayed all week (more than usual). I hosted two parties for needy families and celebrated with our church family. Some of it has been an act-- I admit. But my heart is all for it. My beautiful man got a job at less pay than in years. But am certain He is faithful and I am certain He is in charge. I am certainly nervous.
He is sooo powerful. He can do anything-- He has the strength to watch us tremble and struggle because it is what is necessary. I don't have that strength sometimes with my son. He is sooo powerful he understands what we need and gives it to us. He then gives us the desires of our heart. I type this to remind myself of that. His force leaves me gobsmacked, and it feels as if he has simply left me. When the sting subsides, I clearly see the wisdom. Mid-sting now, I pray for speedy wisdom from an awesome God who loves me.

Son Rise--Cool Today, Not so Hot Tomorrow

A special note about my son. Every year I put together a Christmas newsletter for our friends and family rather than a Christmas card. I am the worst one to remember to write letters during the year, so I make up for it at Christmas with a 2 page photo extravaganza of our entire year. My son has had a great year. He left elementary school and entered middle school. The transition and growth I have seen in him is wonderfully grand. He is growing into a clever, handsome, funny, loving soul. One moment he and I have that special relationship of friendly mother-son that can only come from living three years alone with just him and me. Then the next, he is a cool dude middle schooler where I am not so cool to hang with (with which to hang?). No matter. I found a little poem he wrote and one of his favorite things to do is spend time with family. What a grand thing. Within that same week, two people from our church who would not have much cause to say these things mentioned how impressed they were with my son. What a big smile and beaming spirit I have had when I think of those things. Last night I made him turn off his gameboy (DS?SP? one of those things) and watch the old 1970's christmas shows with me. He moaned at first, but then he watched, laughed and we had a great time. We made origami ornaments and ate Christmas treats. I am sure by tomorrow I will be uncool again.

What is that wind?

Revved and ready for four months I madly made calls, met people, attended networking functions, created products, researched future needs, maintained current needs, served clients, and managed to have a sorta clean house and happy family. WHEW-- then the wind left my sails with a couple of disappointments of large proportions for my business. I then spent the month of November trying to breathe-- no wind! Nothing motivated me, nothing charmed me, nothing warmed me. Dead soul. Checked out on friends, got sappy and sluggish. A couple of friends stepped in and they have no idea they did. They just simply said the right things at the right time. Turning to the word (since without wind, I had no stamina for long passages) I read Proverbs. Solomon was the wisest man ever, so what wisdom would he have for me? Good stuff. Between the winds of friendship and the breathe of life from His word. I am getting up to face the day a little more at peace. Energy is next, I am sure. Cheers to 2007-- a new year full of blessings and promise from where I sit.