Blessings To: and Fro

Well, I had prayed for time to do more for His kingdom. I had prayed that I could begin a company that would expand minds and His kingdom. And the bad guys knew it. I bragged about being able to rely on my husband's steady work (only 4 jobs in 35 years) and then the horned minions took that job from us. I was bragging that my business plan in my business was ahead of schedule and response in the community was good. Then my landlord's plans did not match mine and I am looking for a new location. A hiccup in my plans for sure, but it means 6 weeks or more without income from the same sources I have relied upon.
Ooops! A HA!! That is why. I relied on those earthly things that feel real but are vapor in a God's eye who blinks and a thousand years pass. BLINK. So, just as Shadrack, Meshack and Abednego praise Him in the midst of fire and just as Daniel praises among lions and just as Joseph prays from prison-- I have praised and prayed all week (more than usual). I hosted two parties for needy families and celebrated with our church family. Some of it has been an act-- I admit. But my heart is all for it. My beautiful man got a job at less pay than in years. But am certain He is faithful and I am certain He is in charge. I am certainly nervous.
He is sooo powerful. He can do anything-- He has the strength to watch us tremble and struggle because it is what is necessary. I don't have that strength sometimes with my son. He is sooo powerful he understands what we need and gives it to us. He then gives us the desires of our heart. I type this to remind myself of that. His force leaves me gobsmacked, and it feels as if he has simply left me. When the sting subsides, I clearly see the wisdom. Mid-sting now, I pray for speedy wisdom from an awesome God who loves me.